My beloved blog has been somewhat silent in recent weeks, and I'm posting far less often than I would like. But that's the tiniest glimpse into the microcosm of my life right now. Everything is being done "less often than I would like" and I'm not sure how much longer this haze will last.
I say "haze" because "glow" has never accurately described pregnancy for me, even though you hear it everywhere! When I step back and accurately look at my life, it's a full on haze. Everything is operating at half speed; to-do lists are being half completed; blog posts are being half written, if only in my head; and most days I get dressed half way (hello, yoga pants!) and eat half a proper meal (the rest carbs, thankyouverymuch). And we're all just tugging along through the nausea, sickness, and slowness together over here.
If this pregnancy is anything like the first two (and so far it is), when I'm around 12 weeks this haze will lift and the season will slowly pass. I have four more weeks of this and I'm determined to make this pregnancy the one where I actually AM grateful and AM joyful and AM amazed at what God has given our family - not just telling myself I should be and sitting in a slump of self pity. And by God's grace, both Brad and I have noticed a change in this pregnancy. A change in my heart and my attitude. It took a third pregnancy, but this one really has been one of gratitude, joy, and awe, and not a whole lot of self pity though it's very similar to the others in all the negative ways.
So things will probably continue to be slow here on the blog, because they are the exact same in my real life. If you are missing the regular reading material, I am posting a little more often on the Baby Bump Blog, and today Naptime Diaries invited me to post over there. Thanks for reading along. I'm still here, I promise. Just a little lost in the haze.
I say "haze" because "glow" has never accurately described pregnancy for me, even though you hear it everywhere! When I step back and accurately look at my life, it's a full on haze. Everything is operating at half speed; to-do lists are being half completed; blog posts are being half written, if only in my head; and most days I get dressed half way (hello, yoga pants!) and eat half a proper meal (the rest carbs, thankyouverymuch). And we're all just tugging along through the nausea, sickness, and slowness together over here.
If this pregnancy is anything like the first two (and so far it is), when I'm around 12 weeks this haze will lift and the season will slowly pass. I have four more weeks of this and I'm determined to make this pregnancy the one where I actually AM grateful and AM joyful and AM amazed at what God has given our family - not just telling myself I should be and sitting in a slump of self pity. And by God's grace, both Brad and I have noticed a change in this pregnancy. A change in my heart and my attitude. It took a third pregnancy, but this one really has been one of gratitude, joy, and awe, and not a whole lot of self pity though it's very similar to the others in all the negative ways.
So things will probably continue to be slow here on the blog, because they are the exact same in my real life. If you are missing the regular reading material, I am posting a little more often on the Baby Bump Blog, and today Naptime Diaries invited me to post over there. Thanks for reading along. I'm still here, I promise. Just a little lost in the haze.
can't wait for you to come back when you're ready! I know what it feels like. Take it easy and try not to gag when your brushing your teeth :(
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